Where am I ?

So I sit by the window watching the rain flood the Moses Kotte Residence and turns the end of the lane to a river overlooking the marshy land. I read the Notebook and wonder if a love like that truly exists. I watch American Idol & think about how their lives have drastically changed. I see the richness in the natural beauty of this nation and then pray for the poverty struck people. I then think, what am I doing here, where am I?


Sri Lanka…the pearl of the Indian Ocean. Being raised in the Middle East, I always thought Sri Lanka was a difficult place to live. That was because it wasn’t as luxurious as the life we had in Oman & Dubai. But this island is rich in so many ways. The skies always brighten up your mood. You can taste the freshness of the ocean in the authentic Sri Lankan seafood cuisine. And the beaches relax you as the wind breezes off all the stress.


Although I love this nation, I still miss home. I am hanging onto the promises of God to take me back there. He has been testing me thoroughly this past year. No CPA, graduation or high school exam has been this tough. I am still learning and studying as I proceed on this test. The result is much more important than any other SAT or GMAT exam as my Lord will determine the final outcome and I want him to be impressed with how I’ve handled life’s problems. Hmmm, come to think of it – they are not problems. I’d like to call them “Questions” in my test. I might have failed him sometimes by breaking down in tears or allowing sorrow take a hold on me. But I should never question his questions. He knows the appropriate answer and expects me to respond correctly.

So as I enter in on tomorrow not knowing what it holds. I am going to face those questions he has prepared. I don’t know the answers. But I know I can refer the Bible as my helpdesk for any support. So even if you are searching for that “Notebook” kinda love, I suggest you face all those questions of meeting the wrong person until God tells you “He/She is the one”. Or if your life is going through a drastic change like a new job, being newly married or even living in a new country – think of it as an “on the job” test. Don’t think of God as him keeping score on you but more like him amazed at how you handle yourself by seeking his wisdom & strength.

And soon you will realize that you are in an examination room filled with students going through the same test. The test of life. Read the Bible, seek Gods kingdom, pray and ace that test. You will be certified as a “True Servant of God!”

"Here is my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen one in whom I delight; I will put my Spirit on him and he will bring justice to the nations" - Isaiah 42:1